My life is changing in good ways but I am scared ...I don't want to fail even tho I know failer happens ..

With my anxity I wonder if I will meet the standers of  others and my parent's even tho they  have never pushed me into much

they have told me for years it seem that I will do great things Greater then my siblings ...

I know they mean it they see I do not run from my believes they know I am a hard worker and gifted ...

So many of my parent's family see my Big Brothers and Little Sisters success in life , but I don't show mine 

I don't see the point of Saying Hey Look At What I am Doing Look at What I can do...

With my deep depreson it has been hard to get out of but with God and my parents and myself 

I have learned to live life as best I can to not be afraid of my disablity's  but to be proud that in most senses I have over come them...

I mean from 13 to 15 years of age I locked myself up from others and the outside world besides the T.V and internet...

But I have to say I wouldn't change anything in my life

...I have learned to understand my disablitys and have blow my doctors away  by how well I know how to deal with them...

They want  me to help others which is cool but I am not sure if I am totally ready to listen to others

who just want to not learn but tell me how bad they have it I know that sounds horrible but..

I am a caring person and I try to help everyone I can ...I guess that's do to my big heart..

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I starting to ramble now...

I guess I needed to post and really get my feelings out of me...

I need to post more lol ...I just want to share that I love my dad lol he has been looking out for us kids lol we are his babies ...Yesterday I had to take Meranda home so she could go to college and it a two and a half hour drive my dad came in my room twice making me picky promise to drive safe lol he didn't have to worry Meranda wasn't driving :)....I am so blessed to have my amazing parents they have made my life amazing I cherish the meomorys we have made as a family or just one on one time with my mom or dad...If your a parent give your kids Love,Hope,Courage,Honest,Stregth,Support, and most of all BE THERE FOR THEM...My parents havr dont all of these things and have raised me in to be a good person....

Today will be me and moms day lol I got to get my hair cut and colored we will problem hang out and do more dad is off to go fishing lol...